Settlings

Well it's a sunny morning in St. John's and my mum and dad are coming today! They will be here from ON for 9 days. Pretty excited to show them around- also, the weather has been pretty good lately so it looks like Newfoundland will put on a good show...

Haven't posted on here for a while. Since we got back from our holiday it's been a bit of a whirlwind. We moved on September 1, and the move itself went pretty smoothly thanks to the new and old place being nice and close together, a little Yaris that holds a surprising amount of boxes, a U-Haul van and some strong-armed friends.
The place was in a bit of a state when we got here, mostly due to a tumultuous break-up of the previous tenants, and their lack of cleaning skills. It's much better now though, and yesterday we got the biggest problem fixed... a dirty furnace and a blocked chimney leading to fine soot dust all in the house- aaaaaah! But a lot of wall-scrubbing later things look a lot better-- that made it one of my most frustrating moves though. It's counteracted by the fact that I really like this house.

I also worked a lot last week so that I could take some time off when Mum and Dad are here... I am still doing fine at work but by the end of the day it's nice to put my feet up. My co-workers are so good to me and make sure that I avoid any and all hazardous situations (there's a lot of them in emergency!) such as aggressive, hitting and spitting patients, portable x-rays, infectious people, and rolling heavy or C-spine collared people around in bed. It helps a lot that they are so understanding- "go away, little mama, we don't need you here!"

Sometimes it seems so unreal that we are going to be parents in approximately (could definitely be quite a bit off this number) 109 days. But then I feel those little kicks (so amazing) and I see how my belly is growing (pics to come) and I believe it more... I see the room where the baby is going to sleep (once we get new carpet in it!) and the little baby things that I have collected in a bag and I am reminded. I read this on someone else's blog the other day and I really identify with it:

All pregnant mamas at some point have the realization that they will miss the right now, the way things are just before they are different forever. The best is yet to come, the good is what is around the corner, but it’s our nature to grieve the changes. (www.tothinkistocreate.com)


The other day I was thinking about how the 'just us', the just Brian and I, is not going to be here for much longer. And to be really honest, that made me a little sad. Because this past year and a bit of marriage has been so amazing and we have grown so much together and done so many fun things. And when babies come, things change. So many people tell me that, and I know its true.

But this little blessing is going to enlarge us, in more ways than one, I know this. He or she will make our family bigger, but also our hearts will grow and our love will grow more, as we love this new little person (and already do!) Our marriage will grow as we learn about being parents together and about taking time for each other and raising this little life who we both love so much. And these are only good things, as hard as I think they will be at times. So there is a small part of me that is sad, at times- or at least had a little sad moment a couple of days ago. (I do seem to be prone to rollercoasters of emotions, as well) - but the bigger part of me is just so excited. I will cherish these days, these just-us days, because they are slipping by slowly but surely. But then we will look forward to meeting and loving this precious gift which we have been given.


So that's all, for now. Next time I'll post pictures. For now, it's time to go eat breakfast and feed this rumbling belly :)