ever onward marches time

I only have 9 shifts left. This alone causes feelings of slight panic. I'm almost done. I've been here for only a little over 2 months and I'm almost done, and I have to decide what the next step is.

Looking back, I realized that I have mentioned more than enough times in this blog about how I have to decide what to do with my life. But it does seem like a pretty big deal. I guess its typical of finishing up school and moving on to the next step. I definitely go through waves in my feelings on the matter. Right now, it's more on the side of, "aaaaaaah!".

I got offered a job in Ottawa yesterday. I don't know what to do about it. I was pretty sure that I was going to stay in BC. (I still am, upon a deep moment of self-reflection and honest soul-searching). But then, its like I'm stepping into the unknown, because that job in Ottawa is for sure. My prospects here aren't even close to that point yet.

But, I will stay in BC. I am staying in BC. I like this place. I do miss people back home. Ontario holds many souls who are dear to me and close to my heart. I miss the familiarity of a place that I lived in for 17 years of my life. There's a lot of history there. I miss little things like the snow, and the down-to-earth conservative traditional family-ness of Ontarioans (how's that for a blanket statement? haha), and milk that comes in bags.

Here, though, I like it. The place is beautiful. The ocean and mountains. The opportunities to get out there and bike and hike and camp. The excitement of living somewhere new. Of learning so much more about myself and about faith and life and love and living as I go through more and more days on this other side of the country. And most of all, the people. There are amazing people everywhere. There are people I have met here who mean so much to me already. And I feel like this is only the beginning.

So for now, I'll just piddle around with some short term plans. Where I want to be in April, and probably the summer. After the summer... well, maybe back to ON I'll go. Or not. Things might be very different by August. Life changes so fast. Ottawa? Vancouver? Alberta? All in due time.

Goodnight.